Feeling Good While Going Through It

I want to preface by saying this post is totally all over the place, so brace yourself! I want to preface by saying this post is totally all over the place, so brace yourselfOne might ask, is it possible to feel good about yourself and life in general when everything around you is in complete chaos? I’m here to tell you that it is possible! How do I know this? I have been living it for the past two months. Let me fill you in on my life a bit! I think it’s story time!

In December, I woke up and could barely hear, couldn’t see out of my left eye, & could not walk without the room spinning, feeling like I’m going to throw up and fall over. The first week was so bad I barely remember anything. As time went on, I still couldn’t walk without bending over to keep my balance, couldn’t see out of my left eye, had debilitating headaches daily & constantly, constant ear pain and pressure, and so much more. It has been a living nightmare. It’s been two months to date & the doctors believe they found the culprit of SOME of my symptoms. Turns out I have an AVM in my brain & it could be causing these symptoms. Any time the brain is talked about in medical terms, I always become terrified! When I received the news at the doctors, I freaked out. Thankfully my husband was with me and able to bring me back down to planet earth! Upon learning more about AVM’s, the risk they cause & treatment, it made me very angry and sad. When you’re dealing with health issues and you can’t find answers, it really begins to weigh on you and bring your spirit down. The fact that the doctors still don’t know exactly what is wrong brings me a great feeling of defeat. I know it will be ok in the end, but it is difficult not being able to do much of anything besides work on the computer wearing sunglasses so my eyes don’t hurt as bad! My husband calls me Kim Kardashian 😂

Throughout this experience, I have felt incredibly not like myself. Due to my condition, it’s been hard to keep up with my appearance such as eyebrows, nails, makeup- you know, all the things I love! I typically get a mani/pedi every 2-4 weeks, so it’s been a long while since my last visit. Since I’m able to watch TV due to the screen brightness and size, I’ve been watching Instagram reels and TikTok. I’m pretty sure that’s worse than TV but hey, what can I say? Anyways, I fell in love with the DIY poly gel nails. They look so cute and easy to do on yourself. While searching Amazon trying to find a good starter kit, it dawned on me that there’s no way I will be able to put nails on myself right now. A few weeks ago, I just covered gel polish strips and figured it’s the perfect solution!

I personally believe that if you feel pretty, you feel good about yourself. It’s so important to be able to do something for ourselves when we feel depressed, sad, or just in a rut. Something as simple as having your nails done can make a huge difference in how you feel. Remember, it’s OK to feel your feelings. Our feelings are always valid. Sometimes something as simple as taking a shower can change your mood drastically. If you’ve been feeling sick, or just feeling down, try putting on a tiny bit of make up when you get out of the shower, or get your nails done this weekend. Do whatever makes you as an individual feel good and happy about yourself. ALWAYS REMEMBER YOUR NOT ALONE!!!!!

I’m excited to try out these new products from Dashing Diva. I will let you know how I like them! I’ll also let you know how I feel after 😉 Have a great Saturday loves!

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